– No. Too low! It’s about 20 meters from the ground here. I’ll just break my backbone and be a plant for the rest of my life!
-Although … If I measured the head in the assembly, maybe I will succeed?
-Not make sense! It’s too far!
-I know!
– There are skyscrapers in the town center! Natalia said that there is not a week there, when someone does not jump …
-Just if I get in there? There’s a watchman over there and he won’t let me into the building.
-I can get Natalia to let me in…
– No! I’m not gonna get her into this! She will have remorse for the rest of her life! I can’t hurt her like that!
– It has to be when the kids are at school. I don’t want them to know!
– Who will pick them up from school?
– They will call HIM, if I don’t pick them up.
– It will be a long time before he arrives … They will cry … How will the teachers calm them down?
– Exactly … What about the kids? How to be like us? Calculated, manipulative, cruel?
– No! Fuck! I can’t leave them with him!
– If I raise them myself, there is a chance that they will be at least a little better than HIM …
– What am I doing? Damn it! What am I doing?!
Cry.
I don’t remember how long it lasted.
I entered the living room. I sat on the leaves and cried. I was alone at home. Luckily. It was quiet and sad.
This was where I somehow got into “Wonder woman” mode …
I didn’t want to go down, towards self-destruction anymore … just up, towards the sun.
I knew it was going to be the hardest fight in my life. Even though I was in a depressed area, my body ached and my Soul was bleeding to let me know I wouldn’t give up! I never gave up … This time I was going to win the life of mine and my kids.
I didn’t know how long it would take and what I will still have to go through, but I knew it would be worth it!
For the first time I will be trusting the unknown. I didn’t like surprises…But I didn’t think about fear…
I put on my armor. I took my sword and shield.
Here I am!
