You only see darkness, hopelessness, despair, helplessness. With no exit…
You don’t even believe it exists. You want to end this suffering. The emotional and physical pain is so painful that all you dream about is to fall asleep and never wake up.
You don’t feel that your existence is important to anyone at all. When you disappear, no one will even notice. You get the impression that time is slower than usual when you are angry. You want it to be night already, and it’s only noon. You feel that you are going crazy in a moment, you don’t know what to do with yourself. You run around the room.
This seemingly hopeless state of mind, which seems to lead only to death, paradoxically just saved your life!
Yes.
The picture of depression that I described above and which I experienced myself saves your life.
You will probably ask how is this possible? My answer is that our wonderful organisms are designed to keep us alive as long as possible. Therefore, as a result of long-term mental stress caused by factors such as:
- breaking personal boundaries,
- emotional abuse,
- gaslighting, manipulations,
- blackmail,
- sexual abuse,
- isolating from family and friends,
- addiction to emotions, food, drugs, alcohol etc.
Those factors make the body undergo enormous physiological changes.
They lead to the so-called “hormonal stalemate”. It is a state of hormonal balance where “desexuality” occurs on a functional level. In the case of depression, it can be seen in the form of a decrease in libido.
Hormonal failure prevents a heart attack. Without him, our body would not be able to endure the conflict on the physical level.
In the “desexual” state, we cannot enter the “male” – fight mode, nor the “female” – escape mode. In the case of depression, we also deal with a territorial conflict (breaking personal boundaries).
Territorial conflict (breaking boundaries) + Hormonal stalemate = DEPRESSION
So you ask how to get out of a stalemate?
Set limits … say finally: STOP. Stop the people hurting you.
Create yourself an exit situation. Get help. There are always people willing to help.
This is the beginning.
Then there is a long struggle with yourself. With breaking and changing beliefs that have not served for many years.
Lots of work.
However, these two things should start with. Remember that you are not alone.
I am here for you.
